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Day 9: Missed Opportunities

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to talk myself out of opportunities to better myself, challenge myself, and do better for myself. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let fear keep me from taking advantage of opportunity. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am able to right away determine if an opportunity is a good one or not. I forgive myself for all of the opportunities I have missed, with men, with women, with business, with sport, with academia, with self-direction, etc. I forgive myself for all the times that there was a woman that I wanted to speak to, and an opportunity presented itself for me to speak to her, but I did not take it. I forgive myself for all the times that there was a man that I wanted to speak to, and an opportunity presented itself for me to speak to him, but I did not take it. I forgive myself for all the times I was presented with an opportunity to progress i...

Day 8: WHY WON'T ANYONE LISTEN TO ME?!

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not practise what I preach, or to not do the things that I suggest to others to do. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must emotionally manipulate people by reacting emotionally to someone not listening to me, in order to get them to listen to me. I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to take myself seriously. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that people will listen to me based on the merit that my words stand on, based off them evaluating for themselves the value of applying what I am suggesting, then applying it, when I myself do not even do that. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must raise my voice, or yell, or scream, or cry, or whine, or get angry, when someone is not listening to me, in order to get them to listen to me. I forgive myself that I have accept...

Day 7: Revisiting Day 1

I forgive myself for holding on to the desire for my parents' attention. I finally release and let go of the desire for my parents' attention. I forgive myself for holding on to the desire for attention from anyone and I forgive myself for doing anything and everything that I see could bring me attention. I finally release and let go of the desire for attention of others. I forgive myself for holding on to the desire for my parents to care about how I feel, when they will never be able to do that, not realizing that I am the only person that can help me anyway, so better that I give myself the attention I deserve, and I pay attention to how I am feeling, so that I can support myself through any emotions and feelings. I finally release and let go of the desire for my parents to care about how I am feeling. I forgive myself for holding on to the desire for approval from others, when that is a symptom of low self-esteem. I finally release and let go of the desire f...

Day 6: "I'm sorry, but you were not programmed for this", Part 2

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, understand, and realize that acknowledging that a business's sole purpose being to make money and the morality qualifiers are what causes one to fail in business does NOT mean that one must lie, cheat, and steal in my business in order to win, but what it DOES mean is that the fear of crossing the moral boundary, and the fear of doing something immoral and the fear of people perceiving me as immoral is what screws me over. I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to clarify to myself what the difference is between honesty and self-honesty, where honesty is in the eyes of the system, which is inconsistent, as it says "never lie, cheat, or steal", yet the ones who lie, cheat, and steal, are rewarded with the best lives, which shows that it is clear that morality/honesty is used to manipulate the masses into never becoming and having and doing more with their lives, and self-hon...

Day 5: "I'm sorry, but you were not programmed for this", Part 1

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that building a business would be easy. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine how building a business would go, and when I realized that that is not how it will go, I quit inside of myself, because it is harder than I thought. I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, understand, and realize, that life WILL NEVER be like how we imagine it in our minds, that our plans will NEVER go exactly as we think it will, that life will ALWAYS give you things that you did not think of at first, that is why it is most valuable to be adaptable and flexible. I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that it is the things that happened in our day, in our business, at work, in a game, IN LIFE, that we DID NOT PLAN FOR, that we really and truly appreciate the most, that bring us the most excitement and joy in our li...

Day 4: Women and Finding a Partner, Part 2

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to lay out exactly what I have going on in my mind about women, relationships, and my ideal partner. I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to define what I want in a partner and relationship, and keep what is good and practical and best, and leave everything else. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect to find a partner, without doing the physical actions and movements necessary to find a partner. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to masturbate without question, and to not want to give up masturbation, because in my mind I cannot see anything really wrong with it, even though I intentionally do not look too hard. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use masturbation as a way to create, maintain and indulge in fantastical, imaginary women relationships that do not exist in reality. I forgive my...

Day 2: Comfort, Cults, and Change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear change due to fearing the change of my current relationships that I have with my family, my friends, strangers, women, men, soccer mates, time, scheduling, life, video games, sports, fitness, sleep, body, mind, free time, activity, leisure, clothing, money, earning money, spending money, housing, vehicles, things, etc. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to hold on to the comfort of the way things are more than I want the best life for myself and others. I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize how me deciding to not change my life keeps this world in a state of fear and distrust and unhappiness, ensuring that lives are wasted and heaven is no where near Earth. I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to step into and begin expressing my potential to a greater degree based on fear of judgment and fear of the unknown, of wha...