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Day 5: "I'm sorry, but you were not programmed for this", Part 1


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that building a business would be easy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine how building a business would go, and when I realized that that is not how it will go, I quit inside of myself, because it is harder than I thought.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, understand, and realize, that life WILL NEVER be like how we imagine it in our minds, that our plans will NEVER go exactly as we think it will, that life will ALWAYS give you things that you did not think of at first, that is why it is most valuable to be adaptable and flexible.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that it is the things that happened in our day, in our business, at work, in a game, IN LIFE, that we DID NOT PLAN FOR, that we really and truly appreciate the most, that bring us the most excitement and joy in our lives, so that is more reason to go out and do, rather than stay in and think.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to back down from challenges before even really trying, if I THINK I MIGHT fail.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to quit or give up at the first sign of challenge, rejection, or difficulty.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to do something earnestly, KNOWING that I WILL fail.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be afraid of the words "my best isn't good enough" being real. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be afraid of finding out that my best is not good enough. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of "what if my best isn't good enough?" to keep me from ever pushing myself, and ever even discovering what my best is, discovering what lies within my potential. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that what I am capable of right now is my 'best'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my best will not be good enough for a lot of things, until I change what my best is, which can only come through practice and doing and learning from mistakes and failures and missing the mark. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that there will be physical limitations where no matter what, my best will not be good enough, but those aren't even things that I care about.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give more power and authority to my mind than I give to the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel embarrassed about my results in business.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel as if I let people down by not living up to the expectations that I have set for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become more focused on what people are thinking of me rather than doing the things necessary to be successful, where I would then KNOW what every one thinks of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become obsessed with what I think people are thinking of me, without even really acknowledging and realizing what people are really thinking of me based on what they are telling me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize, see, and understand that what other people think of me and what I think of other people are always wrong, as it is based in the mind, which is based in illusion and delusion, so there is no point of focusing on what others are thinking of me, because it will absolutely, 100%, NEVER be completely accurate, and most of the time will not even be somewhat accurate, and I should also never focus on other people within my mind, and what I think of other people, especially as what I think other people think of me, as that will absolutely, 100%, NEVER be completely accurate, and most of the time will not even be somewhat accurate.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let the fear of "what if people find out that I am not perfectly great and perfectly happy and perfectly rich? What if people find out what a piece of shit I am, that I am accepting so much limitation in myself?" to keep me from doing the things necessary to be perfectly great and happy and rich, and walking through my fears and past my limitations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think the thoughts and say the words "I am such a piece of shit", and enjoy saying those words, without considering the effect it has on me, as well as the effect that it has on others when I say it to others, about others, and about myself.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to acknowledge and realize the judgment that lies within the phrase "I am such a piece of shit" or "you are such a piece of shit" or calling anyone or anything a "piece of shit".

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to start using the phrase "piece of shit" and calling myself and others a "piece of shit" because I saw and heard my brother using the phrase, and I thought it was cool/funny/desirable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create expectations of/for myself within business that did not take into account physical reality, my pre-programming, and my past experiences/memories.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the way I feel about my business is the way everybody feels about my business.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that however I am feeling about my business and whatever doubts I have in myself, my product, and my business, and this world, and in the person I am talking to, when I am sharing about my business, those feelings and doubts will be communicated and received by the person.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to give myself the necessary time, space, patience, and forgiveness necessary to overcome my pre-programming and build a business.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I was not programmed to build a business, and be successful in business.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, understand, and realize that morality is a tool that is used to limit the average person from making money, as morality is not even a consistent point that demonstrates virtue. For example, is it honest (in the system) to steal a cupcake? Is it honest (in the system) to steal a cupcake to feed your starving family? Is it honest (in the system) to become an engineer and work for a fighter jet manufacturing company, even if that jet will be used to murder people? Is it honest (in the system) to murder someone? Is it honest (in the system) to murder someone because the government told you to? Is it honest (in the system) to work for the organization in support of killing others (military)? Just goes to show the inconsistency of morality/honesty, and how what is right is always skewed in favor of supporting the system.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, understand, and live the fact that the fundamental purpose of business is to make money, within the confines of the law, and no other qualifiers, and it is adding the qualifiers of "and do good and help others and never do wrong" and all the other morality points that holds one back from being successful in business.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, understand, and realize that what is deemed honest, morally righteous, acceptable, right, and good, is only done to keep one in line with supporting the propagation and maintenance of the system, and does not actually represent virtue within the human, because what real virtue would look like is a human doing whatever is necessary to ensure that every human and being on this planet is equally given to, physically and psychologically.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, understand, and realize that the system does not support equality, and anything that tries to install or promote true equality will get taken down, unless done so in a manner that the system cannot detect based on it's current pattern recognition. In this, I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that that same system is within me, and anywhere where I support equality within myself and in this world, and try to promote true equality, my mind consciousness system will do whatever it can to take me down and prevent the changing of the internal and external system, and that is where all this friction is coming from.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not understand what it takes to build a business.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not program myself with what it takes to build a business.

I forgive myself that I have yet to realize that it takes consistent, persistent effort to build a business, along with clarity.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to look for, see, and find the fun in working and building a business.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see the value in building a business and creating money, versus working a job and making money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see building a business as something that isn't fun, something that I do not want to do, even though I can see that building this business would be so much fun, and I would be so happy to be building this business every day and working with people to better their lives every day.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not understand, see and realize that it is not so much about trying to become something I am not and become something more, as it is about removing and letting go of the things that are holding me back from all that I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, understand, and realize, that it is not just about what I can get, but I what I can let go of.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to really let go of the memories that I have held on to, and compiled as the 'truth', from every time I have failed, in business, in life, in a game, in relationships, etc, not realizing that it is me holding onto those memories that is keeping those failures in tact, rather than turning all those failures into successes and learning what I needed to learn from them, applying them now, and being successful NOW.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that after I try something once or twice or three times, if I couldn't do it then, then I could never do it, even though I tell everyone that everything takes practice.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can't sell in my business because I haven't been able to thus far, even though that is a lie and I HAVE sold in my business, and I also haven't given many presentations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, instead of growing myself to become better and stronger and more effective as a person and therefore in my business, I have instead hoped and wished that eventually things will change and it will get easy, even though the only way for something to become easier for me, is for me to become better, which comes from me practicing/doing the things necessary to become better.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to complicate what it means to build a business and create an entire mindset around building a business of it being hard work, when really, the activity required to build a business is straightforward and is not 'hard work', but if I want to build a business effectively, then I must WORK HARD, to start.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that to work hard, does not mean to go out and drain oneself, and to sweat, and be exhausted, but all it means to work hard is to be enthusiastic, and to put in effort every single day.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to complicate what it means to work hard, when work hard means to work every day, as most would perceive working every day as hard.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, understand, and realize that any time something seems complicated, it is because I am 'thinking' about it, I am going through my mind, as the mind is complicated, complicated meaning that I cannot see the step by step path to attaining a result. Physical reality is simple, and building a business is based in physical reality: it is 1+1, day by day, every day. Pretty simple. That will build a business bigger than I thought possible.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I don't have to give presentations and eventually I will figure it out and sort myself out and make sales, when really, presentations are the most important part to the business.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become more focused on building the business in my mind, rather than becoming focused on and being focused on building the business in reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be afraid of becoming "that guy" in regards to my business, when it is clear that that is the ONLY way to become successful, that that is what a magnificent obsession is, that that is exactly who Bill Gates was, who Jeff Bezos was, who Elon Musk was, who Richard Branson was, who A. L. Williams was, who Warren Buffet was, who Kevin Trudeau was,  who ANYONE successful in their industry/business was, they became known as "every time I talk to that guy, he'll be talking about ______".

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be afraid of people not liking me because all I talk about is changing the world, and becoming a better person, and what the world could be like, as well as the problems in the world now, when those are probably the exact reasons why people will love me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into other people's bullshit like the stories they tell themselves and others about the world and themselves and what's going on, rather than talk about what I want to talk about, talk about things that matter.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that going against my programming would be easy, and would just require me to write and take things apart indoors, not realizing that I also have to step outside into the world and put everything into practice.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to postpone and delay writing about and doing self-forgiveness on my business, my life, and specific points that have been coming up repeatedly.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to completely disregard the importance of writing things down on paper and actually putting time and attention and focus on specific questions and problems in order to find solutions.

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